"this world has nothing for me & this world has everything"

I get so tired of preparing for life's what ifs.

I secure my home with backup rolls of toilet paper, save magazines that I want to read "sometime," and keep a jar of quarters, in case I ever have a craving to buy bouncy balls from the little vending machines at the grocery store. Heaven forbid I should ever run out of anything. What if I NEED those old rabbit ears... even though I have cable television?!

There is a fine line between smart consumer (but it was on sale) and pack rat. Preparation is not an evil to be avoided, but a good guideline to live by. However... do I really need to buy envelopes & stampes 2 months in advance on the off chance I MIGHT run out?

Whatever happened to the fly-by-your-pants lifestyle of... "Oh my gosh we're out of cereal, I guess we'll have to pop some pop-corn for breakfast"?

I just wish there were times when I did not have to be so responsible. (Aack, the dreaded word). I've got too much good sense (thanks Mom & Dad) to just "check out" for awhile & be a slacker & shirk all my worldly duties as an adult. I'm tired of making all the decisions.

Thankfully, I can also stand back from my self-pity, and realize that I have been blessed with so much. I really cannot complain (disregard above tirade). God has been good to me. I need to let Him work on the contentment factor in my heart.

Too bad I can't stock up on that at Sam's Club.